Do you find that odd? Don't you dream every night as well? Most of my dreams are so vivid that I actually wake up tired. All of the characters in my dreams remain the same. Everyone that has an impact on my life I guess. Normally, the setting of the dream would be of the book I just read, movie I just watched or sometimes the topic I spoke about before falling asleep.
I heard someone say that you and your husband must 'ALWAYS' sleep in the same bed. There is no excuse that should allow the both of you to sleep in separate rooms. Want to know why? It's simply because this is the only 'act' that the both of you make with each other. Think about it...you can have lunch with anyone, drink a glass of wine with anyone, send an sms to anyone, but lie next to someone else? No, you can only do that with the one you are committed to.
So back to my dreams...I have wonderfully blissful dreams, terrifying real nightmares and sometimes, superhero fantasies. In my happy dreams, I dream that I am pregnant. I dream that I am holding the hand of my toddler. I dream that I am dancing to a 1000 people in a large stadium. I wake up so excited and ready to kick-start my day.
Sometimes, I dream of death. I dream that I am consoling a loved one who has lost someone dear to them. Sometimes, I dream that it is I who has lost someone close to me and I am convulsing, sobbing and wake up feeling like my heart has been shattered to a million pieces.
Almost 3 years ago, I started having a recurring dream that involved 2 people. In this dream, the setting changed but the arguments were always the same. I would be burning with rage and yelling at them. I'd start off well but after a sentence my voice gets stuck in my throat. I'd try to scream my lungs out but no sound would emerge. My body would tense up, fists clenched and I would scream but all to no avail.
Funnily, a couple of months ago this dream started to evolve. I'd dream the same dream I've been dreaming but this time, my voice does not falter. The volume of my yelling would increase as I willed it. I finally was free. I could express myself and be heard. They would hear me. They would respect me.
That dream has shown me how much I've grown as a person. That dream makes me feel a little proud and a little lighter around my shoulders.
Another dream I keep having is one I hate waking up from. It always happens in the same house with the same people. In this dream I am always welcome. I sit and chat with people who live in this house and it seems like nothing has changed. It almost seems like a parallel universe. But throughout this dream I am thinking to myself, "What am I doing here? Why doesn't this seem right? How do I get myself out of this situation?"
This dream however, comes once in a blue moon. Comes when I least expect it I guess. I wake up feeling terrible. I wake up wanting to be in my hubby's arms. I wake up reaching out for him.
I never tell him about this dream though. I guess because I don't understand the dream myself and the dream floats away as quick as it came and it's all a blur.
I can't wait for this dream to go away though. I guess it'll only be a matter of time till all the scars fade away...
To end on a happy note, I'd like to share a recurrent dream that I always like to share with my Fairview friends. The dream about Ken Thye...for the longest time from school to HELP to Lim Kok Wing, I'd always dream, once in a while, that Ken was my boyfriend. I found it the funniest thing because Ken was never my boyfriend. I've known him since the age of 4. I went to his house every Chinese New Year but I wasn't very close to him. I'd been closer to the other guys, Ali, Mohan, Bello, Krisna, Imran, etc. So everytime I'd dream of Ken, I'd just layan the dream la! Until a few years ago when Ken came back and we all met up for drinks I told them about this weird dream. I think Ali found it really funny and so every time after that I'd always sms Ali whenever I dreamt about my 'dream-guy'!
Man...I miss my school days. I never really understood why when I was a kid everyone always told me to enjoy my schooldays because I'd really miss them when they were over. What they failed to mention was that they missed seeing their friends everyday, writing love notes to your crush in school, playing pranks on teachers, but you can still do all of these things!
Social media plays a big role in allowing you to stay in touch with all your school friends. Blackberries and Iphones have chat programs that can allow an on-going chat with a whole group of your friends.
So after reading this post, bbm one of your buddies and go grab a drink!
PS I don't have the Ken dream anymore... :)
PS I don't have the Ken dream anymore... :)
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