It's the second time that I have travelled away from the children for over 10 days. This trip was in fact slightly longer than the last.
The first trip I was still trying to figure out who I was. I was trying to understand myself as a married woman, wife and mother to not one but two. I survived the trip and immediately started dancing. Because I felt renewed and the distance helped me bring back my old self and gave me enough confidence to know that I will be able to handle it all. The distance helped me with being a little selfish and knowing that it is ok to be.
So this trip was the second year of being a mum, wife, married woman and also dancer who has managed to tuck a few performances and interviews under her belt. I felt good, confident and strong. I enjoyed my trip but I missed my kids immensely. I felt that the trip was too long and that they would forget me.
I came home and rushed to their room and watched them sleep. I stroked my baby's head who is now a little girl. They grew so much over the last two weeks.
I wake up half an hour before they did and brushed my teeth, made a cup of coffee and readied their 7am feed. I rushed into their room the second I head a stirring and I saw them. We all screamed with delight and hugged and kissed. It was magical. My babies were as happy as I was to see them and we all felt complete again.
This is what every single mother feels for her child.
My mother always told me that you will never know love until you have your own and she said it was unexplainable. This feeling that I just described to you is my feeling.
Some of us are but all of us have one. And to know that love is to know heaven.
The first trip I was still trying to figure out who I was. I was trying to understand myself as a married woman, wife and mother to not one but two. I survived the trip and immediately started dancing. Because I felt renewed and the distance helped me bring back my old self and gave me enough confidence to know that I will be able to handle it all. The distance helped me with being a little selfish and knowing that it is ok to be.
So this trip was the second year of being a mum, wife, married woman and also dancer who has managed to tuck a few performances and interviews under her belt. I felt good, confident and strong. I enjoyed my trip but I missed my kids immensely. I felt that the trip was too long and that they would forget me.
I came home and rushed to their room and watched them sleep. I stroked my baby's head who is now a little girl. They grew so much over the last two weeks.
I wake up half an hour before they did and brushed my teeth, made a cup of coffee and readied their 7am feed. I rushed into their room the second I head a stirring and I saw them. We all screamed with delight and hugged and kissed. It was magical. My babies were as happy as I was to see them and we all felt complete again.
This is what every single mother feels for her child.
My mother always told me that you will never know love until you have your own and she said it was unexplainable. This feeling that I just described to you is my feeling.
Some of us are but all of us have one. And to know that love is to know heaven.
